This is it this is me

So my parents go away for the weekend and as always i have to look after my older brother who is capable of doing things for himself but is just to lazy, so after cleaning up after my lazy shit of a brother and tidying the house and doing all the normal things i do round the house i.e my own washing and cooking my parents come home after their weekend away they come home with presents for my brother and now they have gone out for drinks and going to buy my brother bacci! I have just had enough of it now my parents say they dont have favourtes bolloxes, i need to move out of this out house and then my parents can be left with their favourte child and i can live a life where i dont feel like a worthless piece of shit

Knowing your with her shouldnt bother me but for some reason it does

Really thinking i would be better off if i was single atm

Really missing him =[

He should be with me tonight not in Bristol!

But i know his doing what he loves so i cant be annoyed that he went but i can be annoyed at his mate for not telling him about the gig earlier 

Hate my brain

So just starting to get to know this guy and we arrange to skype tonight i get all excited about it but he hasnt come online so my brain is thinking the worst and it wont stop even though i know there is a simple explication why he hasnt come online (as it more then likely he got straight home from work and went to sleep) and even though i know is more likely to be true then what brain is thinking i cant stop thinking the worst as its pissing me off as it making come off clingy which i am most certainertly not wish my brain would switch off when im at home because i cant stand this over thinking everything as it gets me down so i just end spending most of my down and hating myself (god that sounds so emo) i just want to be the person i was…………. i cant remember a time i was really truly happy. Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr why wont my brain just SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :’( i need a hug

I hate it when i over think things and with the amount of time i have being on my own atm its all i seem to be doing. I have never wanted to back to work so bad so i stop over thinking

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Its 4.50 in the morning and i have been laying bed looking at the celing for over an hour as my brain wont tried off, so i switch on the tv and after about 10 mins my brain decides that its time to go to sleep so i turn off the tv and try to sleep but i just end up looking around my dark room coz apperntly its more fun. I JUST WANT TO SLEEP =[